November 19, 2021

The Rockwell Christmas

Rockwell Christmas

Deb P.

As the season of holly-jolly is once again opening up, I am pre-dreading my usual holiday level of anxiety. Hating it, and truly wishing that this year I can finally […]

Living With Humility and Faith “Help me… sometimes it feels like the walls are caving in I’m trying to find a way to chill, can’t breathe oh Is there somebody […]

…“You need to learn to play without watching your hands,” he told me. “You need to trust the music that’s in you. When you watch your hands, you’re not making […]

“A woman in harmony with her spirit is like a river flowing. She goes where she will without pretense and arrives at her destination prepared to be herself, and only […]

“Art consists of limitation. The most beautiful part of every picture is the frame.” ― G.K. Chesterton On the eve of my 64th birthday, I realize I have spent the […]

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are” e.e. cummings Like everyone who’s ever gone through a major life change…I have spent a lot of time […]

I’ve always been a porch sitter. Some of my earliest memories are of my parents sitting out on the tiny “front stoop” of our tidy little war house in Tonawanda, […]

Faith is like WiFi. Occasionally the internet drops out here in Prince Edward County, for no reason other than the wind is blowing in the wrong direction or the cloud […]

“You, who are on the roadMust have a code that you can live byAnd so, become yourselfBecause the past is just a goodbye..” Crosby, Stills and Nash, “Teach Your Children” […]

Recently I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the course I want the rest of my life to take. What I want the structures of my life to look […]

  1. Paula says:

    Very well said i love reading yr blogs ????????????????

  2. Deb P. says:

    Thanks mama, glad to know it reaches people 🙂

  3. Linda says:

    I love reading your blogs. You have such a gift. I can only imagine the pain that you’ve been through and continue to go through. You are so brave to share your life with us!
    God bless you Deb!

  4. Cathie Snider says:

    You are an eloquent writer and I can fully imagine the emotion and turmoil you are experiencing as if it were my own.

    This is the first piece of your I have read, but I am inspired now to read other pieces you have written.

    Remember you are not alone and that you are loved bu many. Unfortunately, I know of at least 2 other mothers who are currently in a similar position as you.

    Sending you love, hugs and continued strength xxoo

  5. Jo-Ann says:

    Deb once again very well written. I love reading your stories, but my heart also aches for you. I do know from our many years of volunteering together that you were always there for your girls. There are no perfect moms or dads out there. We have all made mistakes along the way and so will your daughters. I pray that your daughter will realize what she and her daughter are missing out on. You are a GOOD person Deb. I pray she will reach out to you soon.
    Hugs ????
    Jo-Ann D

  6. Tania Huk says:

    I have read a couple of your blog posts. You write well…with humour and gut wrenching honesty. This one has me both saddened and angered. I have no right to the anger as I am far removed from your circle. I do, however, remember the devoted mother I knew when we were in the Traf circle. All in, at all times. Please be kind to you, do not search to find blame for yourself. It does not rest there. Cutting off communication and family ties is stupid, heartless and smacks of childish revenge. Several cliches and platitudes come to mind, but I will spare you.
    Instead I send you my support and admiration.

  7. Sharan Yarrow says:

    I read this earlier and have been thinking about it an read it again. As a grown child of divorced parents there are scars their for my sister and myself sounds like your girls have some scars too. I am reminded of a time when one of my boys friends was on the outs with his mom and telling him just to give her because being a parent myself we are far from perfect. My point is that sometimes our kids think we should be ! I am very sorry that your beautiful granddaughter is not part of your life right now and hopefully that will change soon. There will come a day when you will be able to snuggle her up and tell her those gramma stories. At the end of the day you have raised two strong women and because of that no matter what their paths are they are going to be ok and that is because of you

  8. […] are some other posts you can catch up on, written by Deb: “Making Peace” or “Hey There, Me, […]

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